a little late

i know i said i would be
up and about at 5:30 this am to run
oops
here's what happened
wednesday i don't have to work until 10:00
and hk leaves sometime around 5:40
so i didn't set an alarm
i always wake up when hk gets up
and sleep on and off while she gets ready
and am awake when she leaves
so i thought for sure
i'd be awake
oops
i woke up at 6:40
wondering why it was light in the bedroom
wondering why hk's alarm didn't go off
i don't remember her getting up
her getting ready
or
her leaving
oops
so i got a bit of a late start this morning
but that allowed me to see this

so after my horrible time monday
i started this run with as much positive attitude as i could muster
and focused on my breathing
i mean
really
FOCUSED
i walked my walks just a smidge slower
and ran my runs just a smidge slower
well not just a smidge
i slowed down quite a bit
i actually listened to my lungs
instead of just bullying my way through
but
i made it
the last three minutes were hell
but i focused my eyes on a spot in the distance
and told myself to just make it to that mailbox
or that driveway
or that little chihuahua that looks like one of the hyenas from
the lion king
and then when i did
i focused my eyes on another spot in the distance
where the grass goes from short to long
or that white mini van
or that dog that looks like pete from
the little rascals
rinse and repeat
but
i made it
i completed the whole damn thing
as good as i felt when i completed this
i can't wait for my 5k